Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Walkaway today?

Behind such a beautiful face lies demons and self disgrace.
Such sweetness in his lips, mouth, eyes.
When will you give my love a try?
It hurts when he whispers goodbyes.
Please stay, I say, but he goes anyway.

Just give me morphine

Written Jan 2004

I'm in a love coma.  I cannot move or function.  All I do is think of you.  Why? How?  Tingles constantly go up my spine, in my head, a lump forms in my throat, but I cannot cry anymore.  Nothing can stop these thoughts I have.  They are all of you.  I cannot figure out this puzzle in my head, I can't figure out how to get of this couch and live my life again.  I feel dead.  I can't breath or think any happy thoughts.  All I do is die over and over.  I can't figure out why you sound so happy and I am in my own hell of a prison.  Wasn't I a good girl?  Didn't I treat you so good?  Don't I deserve happiness?  Why do you deserve to be free of agony?  Why is the good girl killed and the cheater still standing?  Too many whys. Just pass me the morphine.